On the streets of the USA

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I just came home from a week of fighting , a weekend of driving up the coast of the states and most importantly a weekend of growing up. I find that adulthood brings alot of awakenings. You seem to be awakened to what life really is about, how lovers can turn into enemies and how things are never quite as you thought they were as a child. Sacrifices are commonplace while dreaming is more of a hinderence ( yet sacred). This week I found God, strength, the inner and outer fight, calm, peace, joy and my sisters. I became an adult a little bit more this weekend. But this time, it didn't hurt as much. Rather, it felt much more realistic. I am still going to fight against it though. Well not fight, but try to marry it with the child that still yearns for intellectual innocence. If thats even possible.


Life is fast so very fast. I must find time to listen to leaves fall, to feel their crunch beneath my feet. And mostly importantly to keep looking. To look for beauty, balance, deep conversations, people with history, quick glances, dimples and rainbows.

when life was sweet

time is an ever ticking, never sleeping animal that keeps going on and on without much thought for slowing down or stopping. i stumbled upon these photographs a few days ago and iw as tranformed to a perfect day in the park with dear friends a few years ago. before marriages, relationships, job changes and moves- back when it was just us, the blue sky, good conversation ,and great friendship. being transformed to that day was completly therapuetic. i felt an instant gratitude for friendships that can last through life . this is what makes life great.

Las Horas

Time has become quite a constant source of stress and frustration for me. I never seem to have enough and I can't help but think in my ability to fill time up with things to do that I am missing out on living the life that i truly want.
having a business is exhilirating, fun and challenging. I feel accomplishment and success but with that brings an inability to take care of myself. i am tired, i am pushing myself so much that i am un healthy- physically, emotionally and more.
i had a converstation with someone the other day discussing some products to put in my gallery. we both agreed time is elusive and that we need more of it. then we talked business and pricing. i told her its business and about the money- then she said to me- i guess it depends on what you find to be wealth.

it hit me like a ton of bricks?
what is my wealth? for a long time, money has been my wealth b/c i have so many bills to pay all the time but also because i do want success.

but my true wealth is the life and love that fills it.
somehow i have to believe that again.

heart walking outside my chest

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Life goes by so quickly. I seem to start alot of these posts this way. but its true.
the best thing about this crazy fast life are the people involved and the loved shared along the way.
tonight, i saw someone who i missed, well, i didnt know how much i truly missed until i saw her sweet face. shes brillant and amazing and perfect.
i am happy for her and so incredibly proud just to know her. if becoming a mother means i will love someone even one 10th as much as i love her, then i can not wait for that moment to come. i know it will be the amazing combination of true love and complete heartache.

i still miss her.

LIfe

Finally seeming to sit comfortably in my skin and what life is truly about. thoughts are clearer.
life is still ever racing by.
but i suppose its meant to do that.

Reaching the Clouds

Life is good and strange and miraculous and exhausting and moving and and and......

For the last month or so I have been growing in love, growing within my business and growing as a person. I can honestly say I am reaching new hieghts literaly with this last little trip but also figureatively. I can't wait to see what life will bring next. All I know now is that I love soaring above it all and looking for the next horizon.