one more day to fill what was left behind by him
one more day to try to do better than before
one more day to try to find how the old me fits with the new me
one more day to decide how to move forward
one more day to finally live the life that i want
one more day, to just be me.
truth is, i am fighting for more. fighting for me finally standing up and taking control. for living a life that i want. problem is , all of the dreams that i want mean i have to sacrifice other dreams. do i save up- work until next summer and then go live abroad. will that mean that i miss out on marriage and babies? or is this dream of having that love and family just simply something thats not in the cards for me?
nothing about life turns out the way i thought it would. the more i live the more i see that life is really about me. me making choices and going after what i want. time doesn't sleep. so for right now, i will work and dream - dream of having time to garden, to cook, to read , to have good conversations filled with laugh lines and love.
so for now, i will work and continue missing. missing those dreams, love and what i want.
1 comment:
Kim, I love you and I know you will find love in your life and babies.... it may be the love of family and friends and acquaintances you gain abroad and their babies you will influence, but you will be happy and you will be filled with love all around you.... I really can't help but smile around you, so you have already given me that love!
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