what life was supposed to be like

letting down all of the walls

this weekend i found complete happiness in the simpleness of life. there is something to be said about lettings yourself be connected to another human, to allow yourself to be cared for and loved. as i journeyed in allowing myself to be connected to another i found such healing. such warmth and kindness, such safety and rest. To realize, that life really isn't all that complicated, that people don't fit into stereotypes or that we have to be defined by pre-set notions rather just to open our eyes to see the beauty of another . i found myself wrapped completly in a place where i was forever changed and i relish in every single moment.
I am completly O.K. about all of it

goodbye granddaddy

today i buried my Grandfather. at his funeral, i gained more love and respect for him than all the years that i knew him . i realize that at times we all spend time with one another but rarely sit down to see w ho they are. I mourn for the man that i didnt know but rejoice in all that he left behind. his legacy is his family . i am grateful to carry that legacy and to learn about the man i never knew.

talking to God

i went on a walk in a field that i never had the courage to venture in.
i spoke with God.
Listened.
I am still listening.

til the end

i posted pictures from this photo safari forever ago. when i saw them again it made me think about being alone. i have been pondering the idea of alone for a while as i have struggled to come to turns with the fact that i might live life alone . the idea is great and incredible sad at the same time. i hope to have both. so i am thinking of cherishing the singleness by spending a month in oregon in hopes i can re-discover why its okay to be alone while secretly hoping to find just the opposite.

stay or leave

Yesteryday, I went on a photo safari and enjoyed the sweetness of nature and good company. What joy it is to enjoy the simple thing in life , to watch, to listen, to question and to just be quiet.

grey blue eyes

life has a way of letting you die slowly and without much notice.
i am resolving to pay more attention to the time that is left.
so not miss the beauty and to embrace the time ahead with a new vigor.